It seems simple enough; either you trust someone or you don't. They are worthy or they're not. If you're smart, you'll be just fine.
Except it isn't that simple.
I don't trust easily if at all. For a good portion of my life, I thought it was because there were too many untrustworthy people. I've always trusted (there's that damn word again!) my intuition about people, and I've rarely been wrong.
But there it is: I expected certain things from people, and I got exactly what I expected. I vibrated certain expectations, and they delivered. Now, that doesn't mean that we would have ever been best buddies or that they wouldn't provide a "contrast" for me.
So then, what is trust? Ultimately, it's about trusting ME. It's about trusting that no matter what, I can handle whatever comes my way and use it as a lesson, a gift, to move me closer to what I desire.
One of my intentions for this year is to work on trusting myself because I know my lack of trust is holding me apart from what I want. It's what keeps me from speaking out, it's what keeps me from letting others close to me, it's what keeps me from going as far as I'd like in taking risks.
I have to know that no matter what, I'm okay, and then expect it all to be okay.
You are what you think.
If we are what we eat, as the old saying goes,
we may also be what we think. Or how we think, as well as how much we think.
Toledo, John Ahmer
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